of becoming plastic. was over. but now.. i want to finish it. 2010 is the year i become Cold, shiny, hard plastic i know it wont last long. but. i just that inspiration i need to change myself to become what i want i’ll still be myself… hopefully.
bitch. and at this point i dont care. i feel that u will never get it through ur head. u have failed a couple of times. and they say that u learn from ur mistakes, but i feel that u havent learned anything and that makes me a heartless bitch. you said that u dont care anymore about yourself and that makes my skin crawl its very pathetic. you can call me a hypocrite. and i feel like u have givin up and that makes me even more angry with you. i just cant deal with situations like that. so i avoid. and thats prob the worst thing i could do. but my anger takes over and at this point i dont care. its time for u to actually look back of what people have sacrifice for you. and reallize that people do care for you. ugh i dont know what else to say im venting
i should get my permit (i know its sad. im 18 and i dont have my permit…I DONT LIKE CARS AND DRIVING AND SUCH…) and then like….the next day or the same day get my licence… and then force someone to hire me and yeah and….. save the rest for my tat..or car insurance…lmao or a piercing… idk….
At this very moment. i want to rip the paint of my walls with my bare nails till they bleed. throw things out my window eat glass, and feel it cutting the inside of my throat. gasping for air, blasting out BMTH till my ear drums explode slap on some make up and ware 10 inch heels.